Friday, March 29, 2019

Friday Finds

Happy Friday!! This was our last week at home with Jeff during his paternity leave - cue the tears! I'm not sure how I'm going to make it through the next several months at home all by myself - wish me luck!

We're starting to get a better handle on this whole parenting thing, so we decided to return to the world of the living this weekend and planned a big brunch with some friends (and little Mia of course). I went into full hibernation mode two weeks before my due date when I started getting really uncomfortable and itchy, so I haven't seen most of our friends in almost two months! I'm also obviously excited to have a mimosa or two ;)

Here are my finds for the week - still super excited for spring pieces and crossing my fingers that Chicago will let us wear some of them soon!!

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Wednesday, March 27, 2019

March Budget

Every month I post about my clothing budget. My budget per month is $350, which may seem like a lot to some and a little to others, but feels just right for me. You can read my thoughts on my 2018 budget here.

This month it seems like I bought a lot. I mean, I had a lot of time feeding Mia that was spent scrolling on my phone, and quite a few things made it into my shopping cart at 4 in the morning ;) What can I say, I'm excited to be wearing normal clothes again! But, while I bought a lot, I actually had a few gift cards from my birthday in February and leftover from Christmas so I didn't actually spend very much. I was mostly on the hunt for springy pieces and things with buttons that could work easily for nursing. I'm particularly loving this Amazon find - just $19 and good quality. I've worn it at least twice a week since having Mia! I don't often buy things from Amazon, but once I hear someone else recommend a piece and see it has great reviews, I'm happy to jump on board (like my new favorite tee - just ordered the tank version too!). I just recommend definitely reading the reviews to get a feel for sizing, as a lot of things made in Asia can run really small.

So anyways, here's the damage for March:

Amazon Waffle Tie Henley - $18.99. I love this for nursing! Definitely size up for a looser fit. Seen here.
J.Crew Eyelet Tee - originally $39.95, on sale $23.70, used giftcard $0. This is another one to size up in, as the eyelet top has zero stretch. So cute in person! I originally wanted to snag it in white or blush but am glad I went for the red. I don't have anything like it in my closet and the color is so pretty.
LOFT Striped Tee - originally $29.50, on sale $15.93, used giftcard $0. I've really been feeling fun stripes lately, and the vintage feel of these is so fun. It also has a shirttail hem which is really flattering, but I also love the idea of tucking it into higher waisted pants or shorts for summer. I also always say to size up in LOFT tees as they tend to shrink in the wash.
Shiraleah Pom Tote - $35.00. I ended up ordering this because it was such a good deal, but am not sure I'll keep it because I also managed to order this tote (ahem, in the middle of the night). The second one hasn't come yet, so I'm going to wait and see which I like better. I hadn't heard of this brand before, but they have some really cute accessories at low price points!
J.Crew Factory Faux Wrap Dress - originally $89.50, on sale $35.60. I loved the chambray faux wrap dress from J.Crew Factory last summer, so I was excited to try it in a print. This one actually has a wrap top with a button closure, so it'll be great for nursing. I got an XL in this but probably could have sized down to a large thanks to the elastic waist. I was going to try it on in stores to compare but my local store was sold out, so I'm sticking with the XL. 
J.Crew Chambray Dress - originally $98.00, on sale $58.80, used giftcard $0. Okay, not going to lie, this definitely is not the most flattering thing on me on its own. It could stand to be taken in several inches in the small of my back. But, I am loving the way it looks layered with cardigans and jackets, and the full button front will work great for nursing, so I decided to keep it anyway. I would not suggest sizing down if you have a full chest, since then the buttons would pull.
J.Crew Factory Tie-Sleeve Button Down - originally $59.50, on sale $28.40. I told Jeff this was new (because the one time I wore it I managed to splatter ramen all over it ;) and he was like, really? Because I may or may not own several super similar blue striped button downs. Loving this one though, the tie sleeves are so cute and I like the collarless neckline. Seen here.
LOFT Duster Cardigan - originally $69.50, on sale $37.53, used giftcard $0. I ordered this for chilly spring weather, and then proceeded to wear it three days in a row! I am looking forward to pairing it with white jeans when it warms up a little more. The only issue with really long cardigans like this is they look a little silly with all of my coats since I don't own any ankle length coats. Definitely only wearing this out on days I can afford to skip a jacket!
Vineyard Vines Woven Earrings - originally $42.00, on sale $31.50. I loved all of the woven earrings that popped up last summer but never snagged a pair, so when I saw these on sale I couldn't resist! They are slightly heavier than I like in a statement earring (I have wimpy ears that can't handle anything) but definitely still wearable.

Total Spent: $149.49 
Total Saved (not counting gift cards): $196.49

I've already spent a good chunk of my budget so far for April but things haven't arrived quite yet. I saw these Chloe espadrille dupes and immediately had to order them - so cute for spring! I got them in pink but if you like the other colors they're also available here and here at a lower price. I'm basically still on the hunt for the same things for April, although I may be shopping for new jeans now that I'm a regular size again! 

Did you budget in March? How did you do? 

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Monday, March 25, 2019

Motherhood Monday: On Becoming a Mom

Howdy friends! I am still not ready to jump back into a full blogging schedule, but am thinking when I can post I'm going to focus on three different themes per week - Motherhood Mondays, What I Wore Wednesdays, and Friday Finds. Keep a look out for more posts moving forward! 

For a lot of women, becoming a mother is something they've always known they wanted from a young age. But for me? I was never really sure. I just was never that girl who was really drawn to kids. I was never particularly interested in babysitting and I think only had two or three gigs where the parents actually left the house. When my friends and I talked about becoming camp counselors, I was adamant about wanting to be the Arts & Crafts counselor and not live in a cabin with the campers. And while I don't remember this, one of my friends insists she remembers me talking a lot about wanting to be a DINK in high school - that stands for Dual Income No Kids. I also just knew me - I'm fairly lazy (never come over to visit without letting me know first, because I have 100 dishes in the sink and am probably unshowered and have something weird and embarrassing sitting in our entryway) and selfish and love my alone time.

As I got older and fell in love and got married, I knew a family was something I wanted in my future but I still couldn't quite picture being a mom to young kids. Give me a teenager sure, but a baby? A toddler? What would I do with a little kid? It just has never been something that came naturally to me. When we got pregnant, I started to worry - would I be a good mom? Would I love my baby? Would I like all of the changes coming to my life?

Admittedly, part of the problem is definitely being a little too deep in the blogging world. In the age of acceptance and sharing, I had read a lot of personal stories about postpartum depression and having trouble connecting with your baby, and those had me worrying. Just like I worried I wouldn't be able to conceive after reading so many stories about infertility, I assumed that the worst would happen to me after the baby came.

When Mia was born, I immediately started to cry. Partially out of relief, partially out of all of the emotions and hormones. But also out of worry. When they laid her on my chest, I immediately thought, do I love her? Oh no, what if I don't love her?

I'm not going to say it was an immediate, overwhelming love that a lot of moms feel because I definitely had a few moments of, "who is this little creature I'm supposed to take care of now?" Day one was exhausting and overwhelming and a bit of a shock. We went from the delivery room to the recovery room and immediately had a ton of visitors who all wanted to hold little Mia, and basically ate dinner and passed out. The first night Mia didn't even spend the night in our room because she kept quietly coughing up and choking on amniotic fluid so the nurses wanted to keep a close eye on her while we slept. So did I love her on the first day? I'm not really sure.

But by day two? I was obsessed. We spent the day basically just staring at Mia. I think we turned the TV on just for an hour to watch the end of The Bachelor and maybe took a nap, but the rest of the day we were literally content to just hold her and look at her. And by the time we got home two days later, I was completely infatuated. I was actually sad she was sleeping so much as our pediatrician had told us not to hold her if she was sleeping. I just wanted to hold her and snuggle her all of the time!

I honestly can't believe how much I've loved motherhood so far. I thought breastfeeding would be hard, but I've enjoyed the process and getting to bond with her. I thought I'd be bored sitting at home all the time, but I'm perfectly fine with it as long as I'm sitting next to Mia! Jeff and I literally fight over who gets to hold her and push her stroller, who gets to be in charge of the bath or whose turn it is to rock her to sleep. As long as she's not up for hours in the middle of the night, I'm even excited to wake up to feed her at two in the morning.

I just love this little girl so much I don't know what to do with myself. And I'm so excited to see what each week and month and year with her will bring!

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Friday, March 22, 2019

Friday Finds

Happy Friday!! Whew, the past couple of weeks have flown by - I can't believe Mia will be three weeks old already this weekend! Every day feels so short - probably because our "day" is less than 12 hours since we're up so much at night. Mia has actually been pretty great at sleeping so far, she just usually likes to have a little feeding party for about three hours straight in the middle of the night. 

Are you excited about March Madness? I think Jeff just about peed his pants in excitement when he realized his paternity leave would include the first weekend of the NCAA tournament. We've been watching tons of basketball leading up to the tournament so I actually feel the most prepped I ever have. Hopefully that's reflected in my bracket! 

I've been shopping like crazy the past couple of weeks, partially because I'm excited to shop for a normal sized body again, and partially because I've been logging a lot of hours on my phone during those marathon eating sessions. I have a ton of great finds to share so I had to pop in with a few of them today! You had better believe I've already ordered the pink striped top and the rattan earrings. For the top, definitely size up if you're busty. I initially ordered a large and while it fit, it was more of a crop top on me. Fingers crossed the XL is better! 

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Thursday, March 14, 2019

Mia's Birth Story

Can you read her little onesie?? 😂😂It was a gift from one of my friends and I. Can't. Even. 

I always love reading birth stories, don't you? There's always a little drama and excitement, and of course a happy ending.

I personally was really apprehensive about labor. I'm a pretty big wimp and was worried I wouldn't be able to handle it. Plus I have really narrow hips, and had been told by multiple random people that I might have a struggle with delivery. Which really, if you're talking to a stranger, maybe don't ever tell her that. I tried not to think about it too much, but I definitely was worried - especially when I was told at my last ultrasound to expect a 10 pound baby!

So, that takes us to Saturday the 2nd. Around 3 in the morning, I thought I might be having one of those slow trickle water breaking scenarios. I tried to keep sleeping but was getting up repeatedly to check. Around 7am I started feeling contractions, and while they weren't strong right off the bat they were every four minutes lasting a minute or longer. For those of you who haven't had a baby, there's a rule called 4-1-1 for when you should go to the hospital, which is a contraction every four minutes lasting for one minute for at least one hour. Jeff woke up around 8:30 and I told him I had already hit the 4-1-1 rule, and he basically freaked out and leapt out of bed, started packing everything and showering and trying to rush me into the car. I knew things weren't quite ready so I held him off for a while by taking my time showering and eating, but by 10:00 we had called the doctor and gotten the okay to go into the hospital.

At the hospital they checked me in and hooked me up to all of the machines, and the nurse told me she was also convinced my water had broken. But then she ran all of the tests they can do to check, and they all came back negative! I was still having those 4-1-1 contractions but was clearly smiling and laughing through them plus I was only dilated 1cm, so after staying to be observed for an hour we were sent home and told to come back when I felt like I needed pain medication.

I was pretty miserable at being sent back home. I talked about this on Instagram but don't think I mentioned here that I was diagnosed with a PUPPP rash at 39 weeks, which by 41 weeks was completely covering my arms, belly, and legs and was insanely itchy. Any time I got the least bit warm it would be worse. Basically the only way I could be comfortable was with the ceiling fans on, laying on a sheet on the couch in shorts and a tee shirt with ice packs, and taking a cold shower every couple hours. So that's how I spent Saturday while watching hours of television as my contractions got stronger. They never got to a point where I couldn't talk or breathe through them but I was moaning loudly through each one. At 10:30pm we decided to call the doctor again, and she told us to come back in.

The second go-round we were just crossing our fingers we wouldn't be sent home, and luckily they admitted me right away and almost immediately transferred us to the delivery room even though I was only 2.5cm dilated. I got an epidural right away, which was a little scary (especially since they made Jeff leave the room!) but was incredible once it started working, which is basically immediately. I literally almost tipped off the bed because I didn't realize my legs were numb already! I did shake a bit from the medication but really, that was my only negative side effect. The best part about the epidural was that my belly and legs stopped itching!

After the epidural, they broke my water and said the baby had pooped in the amniotic fluid, which meant the pediatrician team would need to be on hand for delivery as she may have swallowed some of it. They said it wasn't something to worry about and that she would probably take a minute to cry after she came out, but it still made me nervous. At that point Jeff got to come back and put on some calming piano music for me, and the nurses started me on pitocin to speed things along. The piano music really zen-ed me out and I napped for a couple hours on and off as people came in and out of the room. I'm pretty sure Jeff just stared at me the whole time.

Illegal delivery room photo - do we look ready to go? 

Around 7am and after a few hours of pitocin, the nurses started getting a little worried. The baby's heartbeat was dropping a little after each contraction, which isn't something they like to see. They started backing me off the pitocin, and laid me on my back to check the dilation. They said I was now 8-9cm dilated, but after they checked me the baby's heartbeat really dropped. I didn't really know what was happening as they immediately had me move onto my hands and knees and start breathing into an oxygen mask, but Jeff said one of the nurses pushed a button and within 30 seconds about 15 people ran into the room ready to wheel me off for an emergency c-section! It was a scary couple of minutes, but the heartbeat did go back up.

They took me completely off the pitocin at this point and my contractions basically stopped, and we were left to rest again as they slowly reintroduced the pitocin. Around 11:30am they said I was 9.5cm and juuuuust about ready to deliver. Of course, then my doctor had to go deliver another baby and perform a c-section, so she didn't come back until 1:30pm, at which point they lifted my leg and Jeff said he could already see the baby's head! Everyone got into place and I got the okay to start pushing.

Our first family photo 💗

This probably isn't what you want to hear, but with the epidural I thought the pushing wasn't terribly hard. They have you push in sets of three and while by the third I definitely wasn't pushing quite as hard, but she still basically shot out of there. After only 35 minutes of pushing, we had a baby girl! She cried right away so didn't have to be taken care of by the pediatric team after all. They passed her to me for some skin to skin time and I immediately started crying. I couldn't believe that we were parents to this perfect little beautiful baby girl. And really, I still can't - I may or may not have cried looking at her again just yesterday. We love you Mia Lynne, and are so lucky to have you in our lives!!

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Friday, March 8, 2019

Mia Lynne

Guess who decided to finally make an appearance!

Mia Lynne was born on Sunday, March 3rd, clocking in at 8 pounds 13 ounces and 21.5 inches long. Looks like she's going to be tall like her mommy and daddy! We are a little sleep deprived but so in love over here. I'll share more about her birth later, just wanted to hop in quickly and share a few photos of baby girl - cheeks for days!

BTW, my robe and Mia's headband and swaddle are all from MilkMaid Goods.

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Friday, March 1, 2019

Friday Finds

Happy Friday! As of writing this (a couple of days in advance) I'm STILL pregnant but there is an end in sight - I'm getting induced on Monday if the baby doesn't make an appearance before then. If you can't tell, I've had one thing on the brain lately (you know, besides birthing a child) and that is some warmer weather! I keep almost ordering that swimsuit because, I mean, how freaking adorable, but then I remember I'm still pregnant and should probably wait a couple months to buy a swimsuit until I'm closer to my normal size. Here are the rest of my finds for the week:

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